Unfortunately, I am still having a rough day today. I was invited at Mass on Saturday night to go ahead and start attending the adult catholic lessons and dinner was going to be served since so many go after work. I truly wanted to go and start learning about the church and its beliefs, but most of all I was looking forward to the fellowship and spending time with other people. Instead, I am a prisoner to my pain and am stuck in bed.
I get really anxious when this happens. I know that it’s the worst thing I can do, but I go over and over in my head “will I be ok tomorrow? Will I be able to make it fairly well through the appointments I have scheduled for tomorrow? Will having two appointments tomorrow just make it worse?” Only time will tell and at lest my appointments are with my therapist and the new psychiatrist. I still don’t like seeing a shrink, but hey, I guess the first step is admitting you have a problem. Hello, my name is Joy and I am a chronic pain patient who stays anxious, plus, there is some depression creeping in, but I can’t take regular antidepressants because they just make it worse. Oh well, at least I’m trying.
Oh, I wanted to show everyone how far along I’ve gotten on making my first scarf. This is the first anything I have crocheted, so it is taking me a long time, but I will eventually finish, just as I will eventually feel better!